being lonely is no different than being bored. longing. something you want in the future because the present just isn’t doing it for you. which only makes it worse. it is a dangerous problem because it appears to be external, but in fact it is internal and very controllable. get over it. now.

meditation should cure it. but i am going to try a shower instead. slightly more pertinent. especially because i am weak willed. and lack discipline.

nothing is turning out the way i planned. nothing can stop me now. i don’t care any more.

i have friends. online. and in spirit.

sometimes i say stupid shit that people already know. if someone knows something. don’t tell them about it. think of something new. something you don’t have in common. talk about awkward this. read each other’s souls. think about taking a job on kauo. volunteering. to count birds. plant shrubs. and destroy select life with herbicides Aquamaster (rodeo) and Garlon 3A specifically. preserve the status quo. fight change. with your tax dollars providing travel, food, and lodging.

some guy devestated the island with rabbits.

you should come by on sunday. yes. i should.

fucking albums that put dead space at the end of the album. ruins mpthree shuffle. i almost let it slip. misstyped and retracted. inclusively.

i wonder.

friday night. this week flew. time is accelerating. especially when you don’t have a phone or a schedule. there is work to be done. and each day fills that duty. what am i here now?

out and about. a social beast at a bar. i can see a concert. my higher purpose is love. loving others. without. loving others.

my battery is toast. take that environment. everything is decaying. things naturally want to fall apart. and return to the light. but life. it wants to grow. and consume the other way. we eat up the light. trading positivity for motion. truth will love. you are responsible.

some where far away.

lonely. something i haven’t felt for a while.

i like the internet because it follows the universal law, you must ask for something before you get it. for the most part. that is why popup ads feel so violating. i did not want it. it was given to me. would you trade the word world?

it is my struggle. my vice. city. if i could hold my shit in, i wouldn’t need the bathroom. your beard tells the story of your life.

i believe in thelema. it is greek for will. mirrored by love. they are equal numericly. it is kind of complex if you don’t understand it. nobody understands it. i preach without knowing the end. i speak as much to myself as i do to others. in fact, more to myself. i am always conversing. weighing. scaling. and escaping my reptilian past.

what have you been up to. i mean besides your political attempt. failed. i will never be a politician. those guys only want your blood. indirectly. every one of em. including brian green. the votes. i just want the votes. give me your endorsement. your check on a paper. dubiously counted. i wonder if any other jesus has run for political office. or did they dig immortal technique too much and realize that they system only changes you. decimates your will. sign here.

we will haunt you. you might say ahaunt. but nobody would understand you. in your dreams. indirect love. hat free.

i have presents. but you’ve gone away.

talking objectively about the present. what is happening now. can we discuss that?

maybe a lot probably a little. nobody can really say absolutely. you are somebody. hello.

god nab. respect. on you’re weather ohn. removed into gold. and devy i fall. emotional guitar. report. like to sight. record baby i. be bored and sleep like fly. the way i lie. get bored. dragged out. and repeated. i know. ahhh.

people like it simple. why don’t we deliver it that way? we always want to have more rules. more regulation, more complexity, more technicalities. more decisions impacting more people. we decided this once. so it is so.

living law. think about it. it could improve your board. you wood like it. less paper street soap. incorporated.

only tyler durden would get that. who are you?

drake. eric. oh gosh. i don’t even know anymore. cornelius. fed and raised. my body is sucrose and my mind is silicon.

who thought i would eat alive.

my mind in yours. dirty. sensitive. felt. melted.

mushy.

i do.

absorbing what you know. absorbing who you are. until we are once upon a time.

effortlessly alive.

made with organic white corn. net tw nine oz (twofiftyfiveg). packaged for your convinience. because otherwise you would have meat and cheese all over your hands. you need the bun. you need the oven.

nobody knows what i do. i have achieved mystery. yet i write. cryptic conconctions. i am no better than those i despise. my openess is a vague as truth. above all else. the whole thing is a joke. and it is funny, if thou wilt. what is cruel. what is unusual. every day the world passes attrocity is committed in some way. the taking of life is the making of life. lettuce is most tender young. bring out your dead. i’m not quite dead yet.

plants eat the sun. we eat the plants. animals eat the plants. we eat the animals. nobody eats us. unless we die alone. or intentionally fed to something else. when one of us goes missing, the others care. for a long time. we lack purpose. so we cling to each other. we have nothing to fear, but ourselves. sometimes. more often in equality. working to the bone. drilling it dry. grazing the land into oblivion. but that is in the dark past. it is time for self reliance. when orange became.

the key is me.

be your own master. free yourself to be yourself. and stop oppressing me through your unconcious subservience! stand up to the man. your freedom is my freedom. so start caring about it. god damn it, its about time! the revolution is today! february twentyfifth. the day i told someone about life. living. and how to become god. i do like you. your the lucky one. i like you way too much. i’m falling for you.

help me help you. said the scientologist. freedome.com why are the best domains owned by guys from nineteennightysix.

we would all appreciate people giving a fuck about government enough to make a difference.

make the sky blue.

let’s be together.

now.

the power is yours. i have surrendered. i have put myself in your arms. i am begging. pleading. with a sucking chest wound. i reccomend using the package as the bandage. with two finger tightness. elevate the knees. you’re gonna be alright.

my bandage is of the highest un quality. world health organized by the trillateral commision. your friends. exxon mobile. and haliburton. deception. past. three times. or more. quicker now. get over it. you are all that matters. not us. you.

you must pay for what you want. with blood. sweat and tears. get a good pair of jeans. and a trowel. nobody is gioing to pay for it anymore. no more magic credit. we will survive. we have to. but only those who are ready. some of us may not be. globally as well. clinging is the first sound of death. flesh never tasted so good. shredding a cow to pieces with bare hands. bear feet. the grizzly in the flag reminded you.

wine. support. childhood. life. over and over again. what goes on in your mind? be the mother who sees the childish behavior in yourself. scowls, but remembers, and somehow finds happiness. a joy that only you could be having in your heart. percieved in your mind. torn in between. tying you here.

all of your eggs are on the same earth.

consciousness is not the only cure. thirst. thurst. trust. we are nothing more than each other. big or small. alive or dead. if you are part of god, act like it. take command. give inspiration. lead. with a bit of copper. and sulphuric mercury. or indian curry in a pinch. super natural. on the answering machine. full for life. i’m okay.

empty. with paris and lindsay. the church is the only thing earning income. that is why constantine decided to let it take over political affairs. a myth commanded more respect than the senators. they suffered our same insolence. we will not repeat the same mistake. this time, we shall believe in ourselves. we have the technology to construct consensus.

but perhaps that is the problem. we. always making rules. judging. crippling creativity. i don’t know. are you ready for democracy? would you stake your freedom on your vote? philosopher kings, you had better start educating the general public. share your wisdom. we all need to know. we all need to turn lead into orange.

ruby is my birth stone.

programming ruby. jacobs tablet. and backyard livestock are on my right. with five pounds of barley. seed. to them, they are already left. it’s funny, because one day you are going to wake up and be like “oh, i get it”. and from then on, peace will rule your life. positivity will provide. and love will be the law. love under will.

disciplined desire. ritual. intent. purpose. meaning. rule the world. star dust.

i knew love once. felt it. and since then, never again. i am sure it was mutual. just inconvienient. and not meant to be. everything is temporary. love everything, and love will be eternal. love dissapointment. love depression. love love. love love love.

life is short.

the speed of light is constant. inhale. exhale. now stretch. god. now do that for three more breaths.

temperature measures action. and mustaches show growth.

1318.

farewell.

compassion. feeling nothing but love.

repetition. ambition. and what you make of it. expectations. promises. truth. until proven guilty.

unconscious work. not fitting of a magician. simplified user guide.

look at our society. it is totally geared for a tweleve year old boy. our social situations. and interactions. our behaviors. passing notes. asking each other out. getting jealous. wanting, yet we are not willing to dish out the work to get it. we want to be taken care of. pick fights, but then retreat under daddies wing. the illusion of maturity is rampant. i am always better than you. my daddy owns twice as many things.

but does daddy really exist?

for some it is god. a lot it is the government. and for the lucky few, it really is their dad. giving me a chance to live. he seems old. wise. able to solve anything. twice as productive, and three times as driven. he will not be defeated. ever. though he is physically weak right now. finally becoming susceptable to injury. he is not forever young.

i must pick up my scepter. in time. forever young. i have to know the truth. today is the revolution. find the light. live your dream. forever.

in my freedom there is silence. and horns. smoothe jazz. accompanied by bass.

trying to focus on one object. the eye of ra. seeing is creating for the first god. trying to rationalize it. trying.

know. be. see.

no b c

double creation. i owe you. plus sum. over time. as if it matters. eye. magic.

so to speak. my life is in a shopping cart. i can not see three feet in front of me. my guts have dried up and died. and i water them back to life. for you, my gypsie moon.

midori.

make your key useful. unlock something. give it thought. make it count. time is on your side. care. know what to say. go inside. and know you are love. it’s all okay. we’re in this together, we are close. touching. feeling. knowing. thanking our lucky stars for each other.

meeting in a better realm. minus the journey. internaut.

there are too many humans to communicate telepathically. if we all talked over the shared subconscious like we used to, it would be white noise. as it is. so we learned how to talk when there became many of us, so we could communicate locally with those we needed to most. and we relied less and less on the shared subconscious. but with talking, it is important to gossip and share news, because this keeps the other men that conglomerate the  supermanorganism god in the loop. god helps man survive in general. but all knowledge is shared already via the subconscious, you just have to be very adept to read it and find what you need. get past your blockers that filter it for you. keeping you “safe” from beast that is god itself.

give me truth above all else.

day after day. time after time.

how do you keep doing the same thing. day after day. time after time.